little darling. is growing up, 

i love her soo much

you were in my dream, but came back a reality,

people. beauty, i am so content. learning so much. 

here is to inspiration. the photo, brings a flourish of emotion. 

I thank God.

i had to stop really quick.. & say a word or two..

Facebook. 

you're mom has one, (no punn intended), your dad, your grandma, your college counselor, your best friend, your mailman. Yes, i've even seen my neighbor's dog have a facebook. 

Its a social networking time. So many good uses, yeah? In ways it makes anyone just seem like an ordinary person. & disconnected in ways, a friend.

but im finding a slight flaw in the Definition of: friend

simply i hope facebook doesnt call webster. 

It seems like such a personal, yet impersonal way to reach into everyones life. Some of those, who take it much too literally and seriously. Some who just like to snag a look at what's going on..

Twelve year old girls, crying about their latest fight with their mom. College students asking for Tutors, Mothers yelling NO's and YES's of swine flu shots and Political caring somebodies fighting about opinions on our health care.

Really, i dont care what your status says, or what you are talking about with your old friend in Highschool. 

I just really hope that the definition of friend, stays more personal rather than impersonal and that the new verb we are creating 'facebooking'  'facebook' .. still backs up  a true sense of who we intend to be.

stay real.

hello to you,

i received an email from Leon, mexico today. The best yet.

here's a part, 

(if you read this, please read with fragile, open eyes)

"as i think of perspective and sight, i am reminded of the many times in Christs ministry when he gave sight to the blind.  i`d like to put ourselves for a moment in the perspective of the blind man.  for life, walking in darkness, prompted and pursuaded by the noises of the world, maybe never understanding the true beauty of the world.  but as the Savior comes, He bekons us.  we feel His hands on our eyes and immediately, a world unseen comes into full view, the radience and glory of such, only dimminished by the Savior, standing right in front of us.

we are in some sense blinded by our sins, `the mists of darkness...of the devil...blindeth the eyes`(1neph 12:17) and need to seek after sight. 

 

He gave His name so perfectly by calling Himself the `light of the world`(jhn 9:5)  in that, not only does He mark the paths of righteousness, but to the allusion, He brings us out of darkness and obscurity, into light and life. "

beautiful; he always did word things quite right. articulation is a gift for Benjamin.

i want to create beauty, so here are my goals.

(in no particular order)

1.  have a larger income, for bigger purposes. (savings, lovings, creating) NEW JOB
2.  paint, call up suzanne & pick up my canvas
3.  Organize myself, into a start of acceptance
   
4.  everyday be grateful. Gain perspective
   
5.  Temple, every week.
   
6.  love
   

so in an unnatural effort to hold back so much. emotions are flooding in my eyes.

what a good week. 

subtle, seems to be my title for the days which have passed. subtle realization. 

subtle love, stress, appreciation. my bestfriend. my lover. my God.

in the car, at my desk. & most of all,  A spark of personal interest, in the sky. subtle realization?

we are more than we know. 

hearing in my head, the thoughts i create; echoes of a spirit. I wonder who really is inside this body? 

who are you?  ...more than you know.

so there is the question. so many hanging questions. but my hope will always have surity. to be a better person in the fullest of capacities. hopefully the space is always blank for more..

i want to keep finding beauty. after all, i do know that.